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So it has been a hell of a long time since i last posted and a ton has happened in my life so i figure i should post.
Three years have come and gone as a member of macombers and i am hanging up that hat. It was by far the best time i have ever had performing. I got to sing songs that i like with some of the most amazing people ever brought into existance but i need to push myself out in the real world.
Three years have come and gone at Cheeseburger in Paradise and although the money sucks right now, i truely love my job.
I spent three months working at Walt Disney World and there are volumes to write about it. My roomates were so awesome save for brendan,he was creepy. The job itself sucked, stocking ice cream and coke in carts out in the central florida heat in the late summer was horrible. Apart from the actual job, making magic and memories for little kids and little kids at heart everyday was one of the most fulfilling things i have ever done. Jenn Penn summed it up best, "working for Disney was the best worst experience of my life" and i agree.
With relationships i find them fickle atleast for the time being. I have been so busy with work/school/moving/life that a relationship has seemed unworthy of my time. Having Trever by my side was nice at the time but being on and off again so many times led to us growing into two seperate people and realizing that was a good step forward and i can say that i am 100% over him.
all in all i can say that where i am in life is a happy place. i have friends, enough money to maintain happiness, a job that i love, and peace of mind that i haven't felt before. The only complaint that i have is that it has become too routine. I wake up, go to work, come home, and sleep to do it again the next day.
however i am still good
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Jul. 3rd, 2007 @ 12:18 am
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In whatever time we have,
For as long as we are living,
We can face whatever commes,
if we face it now as one.
I could make it on my own.
Let me know that I don't have to.
No one really wants to be alone,
in whatever time we have.
If at times we are afraid,
with so little to beleive in,
it's alright to feel afraid.
I will hold you in the dark.
All we know for sure is this;
though the world could end tomorrow,
you and I will be together in what ever time we have. |
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Apr. 15th, 2007 @ 11:44 am
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Jan. 31st, 2007 @ 10:20 am
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I have been stuck with a weird feeling for the past few weeks.
It's like a combo of things.
1) I am starting to realise that my youth is over and that growing up needs to start.
2) I keep holding on to things years old that should have been let go a while ago.
3) I want a change of scene
4) My back hurts, i feel like i'm 60
I dunno what exactly the feeling is, but i know that i don't want to have it. It's killing any introspective look that i give myself.
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I know i hardly ever update anymore but i have given alot of thought to alot of topics.
The new year is here finaly and although it sucked, i can look back on 2006 and say that I have learned more last year than i ever have in my entire life.
Let's start a month to month list here.
January
Trever pt. 2 electric bugaloo.
I was extremely happy to have him back. He was my everything at that time and to have it all come again was a great feeling.
February
The Poverty Shuffle
I had no job and the next few months were the hardest to get through but brought on the most change. I was unemployed, had no money to my name, and i was forced to sell things that in the year previous, would have been the most important thing i had. I got a job in the middle of the month as a host at a new restauraunt in town called Cheeseburger In Paradise. and it brought in some money but not that much.
March
Spring cleaning
Winter was over and so were trever and i...again. The ac in my duster didn't work and i was suprised to discover how shallow i had become. I was excited that i could wear flip-flops again...woot.
April.
Things Pick Back Up
Money started to come back in and it felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders.
May
License Revoked
two things happened in this month that were a shock and a loss.
1) my license was suspended for eight months. luckly i almost have it back.
2) this one sticks with me every day. One of the macombers, a close friend, an amazing talent, and an equaly amazing person passed away. Singing at her funeral was the hardest thing i have ever had to do. I know we all miss Corrine.
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these events are some i have learned alot from and i am glad that they happened as sad as some may be. I have learned so much and i hope i can learn some more come 2007
*months June through december really don't have much going on. except i was promoted at work to a server position(which brought more money) and i had kindof found solace in the arms of somebody that i never expected, they have an lj so i won't name names, but they helped alot. |
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It's in the singing of a street corner choir,
It's going home and getting warm by the fire.
It's true wherever you find love it feels like Christmas.
A cup of kindness that we share with another,
A sweet reunion with a friend or a brother,
In all the places you find love, it feels like Christmas
It is the season of the heart,
A special time of caring,
the ways of love make clear.
It is the season of the spirit,
the message, if we hear it,
is make it last all year.
It's in the giving of a gift to another,
A pair of mittens that were made by your mother.
It's all the ways that we show love,
that feel like Christmas.
A part of childhood we'll always remember,
it is the summer of the soul in December.
Yes when you do your best for love,
it feels like Christmas.
10 points for whoever can tell me where this song came from,
and an extra 20 holiday points to whoever can tell me why it's stuck in my head.
Dec. 19th, 2006 @ 09:13 pm
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I know i haven't ljed in a while but....
THIS CLASS AND PAPER ARE GAY
danke
Dec. 7th, 2006 @ 08:18 am
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Got a brand spankin new laptop.
Tis a gateway
with windows xp media center
and an amd turion64 dual proscessor
and a NVIDIA GeForce graphic card
and a dvd/cd burner
and it rocks
just a heads up
-patrick
Aug. 17th, 2006 @ 06:05 pm
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Waiting here underneath your window
Hoping for some kind of sign
Every move every tiny gesture,
Only proves that you’re not mine.
I could write you a thousand love songs,
Search the world for the perfect tune and rhyme.
But what good would it do
When it seems I’m out of time.
If I told you,
All the words I’ve yet to say,
Would they matter?
Or would you simply turn and walk away?
If I hold you,
Will you tell me I should go?
Do I chance it?
Or would it just be better not to know?
Who’s that guy with the perfect future?
His reflection says it all.
Trying hard to pretend he’s eager
Searching for some way to stall.
So unsure of the road he’s chosen,
Faced with feelings his heart should not allow.
One thing’s certain
It seems he can’t turn back now
If he can tell him how.
If I told you,
All the words I’ve yet to say
Would they matter?
Or would you simply turn and walk away
If I hold you,
Will you tell me I should go
Do I chance it?
Or would it just be better not to know?
Jun. 27th, 2006 @ 06:49 pm
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Corrine Papeirski passed away. I don't know when, I don't know how, and as further proof that god, if he does exist, loves his myserious ways, I don't know why.
I don't know what to say, no witty remark, no punch-line, she was just taken so fast and so unexpectedly.
We miss you Corrine
"KEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
Corrinne Papeirski
1985-2006
May. 20th, 2006 @ 05:07 pm
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anonymously post:
1. One secret
2. One compliment
3. One non-compliment
4. One love note (It doesn't have to be for me....but it'd be sweet if it was!)
5. Lyrics to a song
6. And a hint to who you are
Apr. 18th, 2006 @ 10:57 pm
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HOKAY
Lasertag has been pushed back to around 7 tonight
Lisa needs to pick up jimmy and such.
So if you can still make it (and please do)
Meet in the LOHS parking lot at 7 and bring money
oh, and life is good blah blah blah
see i updated!
-pat
Apr. 15th, 2006 @ 10:30 am
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http://kevan.org/johari?name=P-trick
go there and do it and i will love you forever...maybe
Feb. 21st, 2006 @ 09:33 am
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I have an announcement.
Last night was prolly the best night i've had in a long time. I went to dinner with Michelle and Trever where I found out that we broke up because he was afraid of getting attached before he went to college in Illinois. I re=assured him that even though we broke up i still cared about him alot and I would give it my best attempt, if we last that long, to make it all work out. The three of us went back to his house and watched tv. Michelle left like two minutes before i did. I got up to go, Trever was tired, and i stood outside his doorway to wish him a good night and I did, and he motioned to me with his finger to come closer and i did. He leaned in, I leaned in...and he kissed me and held me like he did on our first date.
I do not know if we're back together but it's a start
Jan. 14th, 2006 @ 09:14 am
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Who's got a stranger playlist?
Open your music player and set it to shuffle. Write down the first line of lyrics from each of the first 25 songs that come up. Let people guess, and then underline or strike out songs as they are correctly identified...
1.I can't see too good now, the lighting has changed. I'm not movin' too swiftly, the room's been rearranged. Things are somehow different you see, this just don't feel like me.
2.I wanna be a dancin' man, while I can. I wanna leave my footsteps on the sands of time if i never leave a dime.
3.Steve, Joanne! The Merjay case...We're Okay!
4. When the moon is in the seventh house and jupiter alligns with mars, then peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars!
5.On the 21st day of the month of September, in an early year of a decade not too long before our own, the human race suddenly encountered a deadly threat to its very existance, and this terrifying enemy surfaced, as such enemies often do, in the most semengly innocent and unlikely of places...
6.In 1902 Father built a house on the crest of the Broadview Avenue Hill in New Rochelle, New York and it seemed for some years thereafter that all the families days would be warm and fair.
7. Today started with a crazy kiss on the way home. We were in for a suprise, who would have known? Who would've thought that we would become lovers? As friends we were so so tight. Couldn't help myself you make me feel so right.
8.Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me and all things are going to happen naturaly?
9. Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality. Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see.
10.Ooh Baby. I know you want it, i know you do, cause when ever I come around she's all over you.
11.Mustello, Malboro, banana by the bunch. A box of captain crunch will taste so good.
12.What is love? well baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more.
13. Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya! Lock the door and stop complaining gather round and listen well. From now on we're entertaining how to hotten up this hell!
14.Alaaaaaaaaarm goes off at seven and you start uptown. You put in your eight hours for the powers that have always been, till it's 5 p.m.
15.Gonna take you down....deep down to the front line. You woke up this mornin' got your self a gun.
16.Well Ali-baba had them 40 theives, sheherazade had a thosand tales, but master you in luck cause up your sleeve you got a brand of magic never fails.
17.Halleluja! Halleluja!
18.A new world calls across the ocean. A new world calls across the sky. A new world whispers in the shadows. Time to fly! Time to fly!
19.When you're feeling sad and low, we will take you where you gotta go. Smilin', dancin', everythin' is free. All you need is positivity!
20.Uh huh, this my shit. All you girls stomp your feet like this.
21. Don't breathe too deep. Don't think all day. Dive into work. Drive the other way. That drip of hurt. That pint of shame, goes away just play the game.
22.This is the moment. This is the day. When I send all my doubts and demons on their way.
23.Dun dun du dun dun dun duh dun. da na na da na na da na na da da.
24.We want billy. Give us billy. B-I-DOUBLE L-Y , we're all his! He's our kind of a guy! And Oooh what luck, cause here he is!
25.Hey Yah, I wanna shoop baby. Well here i go, here i go again. Girls what's my weakness? Men! Ok then, chillin' chillin mindin' my business you salt i looked around and i couldn't beleive this. I swear I stand, my neice my witness, the brother had it goin' on with somethin' kinda ooh. Wicked, wicked. Had to kick it, i'm not shy so i aksed for the digits. Oh hoe no that don't make me, see what i want slip slide to it swiftly. Felt it in my hips so i diped back through my bag of tricks, felt for a tip, made me wanna do tricks on him. Lick him like a lollypop should be licked. Came to my senses and chilled for a bit. Dont know how you do the voodoo that you do so well, hell, it's a spell. Make me wanna shoop shoop shoop.
Viel Gluck.
Jan. 12th, 2006 @ 06:02 pm
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YOU GET TO ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS:
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No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless
I promise to answer them 100% truthfully
Repost this to see what others ask you...
Jan. 7th, 2006 @ 11:08 pm
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I'd rather be sailing, yes i would
on an open sea
I'd stand at the railing if i could
feeling wild and free!
The sun is on my neck, the wind is in my face,
The water's incredibly blue.
And I'd rather be sailing,
Yes I'd want to go sailing
And come home to you
Sex is good, but I'd rather be sailing.
Food is nice, but I'd rather be sailing.
People are swell, but I'd rather be sailing over the horizon!
And Oh! I'd rather be sailing, yes I would
On an open sea.
I'd stand there if I could.
Feeling wild and free!
The sun is on my neck, the wind is in my face,
The water's incredibly blue.
And I'd rather be sailing,
Yes I'd want to go sailing
And come home to you.
I'd rather be sailing, yes I'd wanna go sale
And then come home to you.
Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 01:25 am
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The Semester is Over!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't have Macombers for a month!!!!!!!!!!
I am going to be home starting tomorrow all the way through January 16th!!!!!!!!
I love exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!!
Onve Upon A Mattress is on tonight!!!!!!!!!
Three Noses????????
umm...oh yeah! I have the working songbook!!!!
and I <3 You all.
Oh and seeing as I will be homw starting tomorrow through January 16th, You should call me and we should hang out...cell # is 586 872 53 63!!!!!!!!!!!woot!
Dec. 18th, 2005 @ 01:41 pm
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I have closure finaly...for more details just ask me.
Nov. 24th, 2005 @ 11:32 pm
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Jen Toth...
YOU MUST GO TO THIS WEBSITE!!!!
http://ljs.winnercomm.com/Pepes_Lounge.html
IT IS THE BEST WEBSITE EVER, OKAY.
Nov. 11th, 2005 @ 05:17 pm
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